Big Brother

A Big Brother Waffle

Well we are at the start of week five and since starting blogging; it was inevitable Big Brother was going to creep in somewhere. bb eye I’ve always been a fan of the show, with many nights over the years, spent glued to it with my mammy. It probably sounds a bit ridiculous but as a former housemate, you can’t help feeling some sort of loyalty to the show. No matter how different the set up becomes, how ‘steamy’ and ridiculous the showmances end up or even how shit the actual episode is, you still watch, you still tweet along and sometimes may even find yourself defending it.

 

Now that I’m back living in Dublin I’m watching on TV3. One thing I must state quickly is that TV3 need to sort their advert out, as it is certainly not ‘the most explosive Big Brother in history’. Possibly in the history of TV3, yes, because they only started showing it last summer and realistically, last summer – BB was shite.

 

As I’ve previously admitted how much I miss the good old days of BB where it was a genuine social experiment and not, as most would say ‘a stepping stone for many Z listers’. I’m sure without even needing to mention who this year’s is, we’re all aware that Ryan Ruckledge with his ever entertaining (NOT) attention seeking, his talked about drunken scene at X Factor boot camp and of course the clear analaysis of previous Big Brother headlines he has clearly tried to recreate, can stand proud with the ‘I’m extremely desperate for people to know who I am’ trophy. It’s obvious I’m not alone when it comes to missing the iconic, fun and enjoyable to watch tasks rather than the dreaded watching of awkwardness when someone’s bitching is played, or the ‘who’s the most two faced’ questions pop up. Where are the task team who created some of the most hilarious moments of reality TV?

 

Straight in to everyone’s first question, no I don’t actually know if I would do it all again. Of course I’m extremely grateful for having the experience and have never wished I didn’t do it. Meeting some of the people I did and obviously for the memories I’ve gotten in return, good and the bad, I’m very thankful for but you look at the house very differently once being inside it.

 

Thankfully I did Big Brother when I did and I think at the age of 18, it gave me a massive advantage for my personal future. From a very young age, I was very much aware of who I was, what I believed in and what I wanted but Big Brother taught me in much more depth. Despite the many things, I’m not going to bore you all with them bar the fact it’s taken my tolerance level of bullsh!t right down below zero, shit.jpg apologies if that offends you in our conversations.

 

Personally I feel when people watch the show; they do forget that they’re generally missing out on 1,395 minutes of the 1,440 in that day. Anyone with common sense will know that they are seeing even less of each individual, their most ‘entertaining’ moments, usually arguments. That being said, since when did we become a generation of wanting to watch people argue, watch people intimidate others or even watch people turn an entire group of people against one individual. We all point fingers and shout how it’s unacceptable to do this in school or a working environment, why is it all of a sudden entertainment because it’s on the telly? To think what way the media can make us think is a little scary and I just want the old, fun BB backkkkkk.

 

After a brief, probably confusing, overview of some of my points – I’m off to start writing my analysis of who’s left in there!

 

Thanks again for reading, Ash xx

Me, Myself & Gucci

Are you aware that anxiety is now affecting 8.2 million people in the UK alone? Never mind another 40 million in the US.

My name is Ashleigh Coyle, I’m a 20 year old Irish model, from a very selfie 13sane and stable family background, so we claim anyway. I’m an animal lover, to the extent where I have more time for a stray dog than most humans I know.

My miniature Yorkshire terrier – Gucci, is my world and has been for the past four and a half years since she was a pup. I’m also the definition of a shoe fanatic, the ‘buying shoes’ jokes from family and friends are heard on a daily basis at this stage.

A lot of you that picked up this link on my social media probably know me from walking out of the most famous house in Britain as the runner up – Big Brother 15 or from winning the Best Female Reality TV Personality at the NRTA’s or simply as the girl who looks like she’s just rolled out of bed no matter what time of the day, when being sent to the local shop for milk by her mammy (we’ve all been there).

A random fact to start my introduction most will say, but despite the brief I’ve given of myself in the previous paragraph you probably think I’m living life to the full or I’m super happy all the time or you could be the stereotypical a$$hole that assumes I ‘love myself’ (if only I had a pound for every person that made that assumption) but I too, am included in the above statistic suffering from anxiety.

Since suffering with this particular mental health disorder, I understand how hard it can be to introduce or even speak about yourself to people and trust me, blogging it is no easier. I’ve been a columnist and blogger for several magazines and the introduction never feels any less unforced. It’s very easy to sit back let your anxiety define you but it’s important that you don’t (future blogs to follow) so here’s a simpler format for you to get to know who I am – the good old 20 Questions.

  1. What is your nickname & what do you prefer to be called?
    Ash & depends how close we are. I’m mental enough to probably take offence if you start calling me Ash after meeting me two minutes ago.
    me and mammy
  2. How often do you doodle & what do your doodles look like?
    To my mammy’s disappointment, unfortunately I didn’t  pick up on her artistic skills, not even to the extent of being able to doodle, so my doodles look like my name. 
  3. What do you do if you can’t sleep at night?
    If I had have been asked this last week, my answer would have been the same as every other compulsive internet user, ‘sit on my phone’ but since then I’ve developed the benefits of meditation apps! 
  4. When making an entrance to a party, do you make your presence know, slip in and look for someone you know or sneak in and find a safe spot?
    Well it depends on who’s party it is. Like every other sane person, I wouldn’t enter my boyfriends, granny’s 90th with ‘HEYYYY WHERE’S THE CAKE???’ however I’d probably enter my best friend’s party in such ‘manner’.

  5. What is one guilty pleasure you enjoy too much to give up?
    I haven’t quite decided whether it’s buying shoes or being every dog owners worst nightmare in the street by stopping and asking 101 questions and needing to pet.

  6. Are you more likely to avoid conflict or engage it head on?
    Engage it without a doubt.

  7. What is something about yourself that you hope will change, but probably never will?
    How stubborn I am.

  8. Are you more inclined to “build your own empire” or unleash the potential of others?
    Well I’m nearly finished level 20 on ‘Sim City – Build It’ practicing for future world domination so definitely build my own empire.

  9. Do you prefer that people shoot straight with you or tamper their words?
    The more honesty the better the friend I say.
  10. What’s one thing you’d rather pay someone to do than do yourself & why?
    Pull the hair out of the plug hole in the bath after washing my hair because I’d rather vomit.

  11. What’s your reaction towards people who are outspoken about their beliefs?
    I’m very outspoken and stand very strongly for each of my beliefs so people who are similar are my favourite types of people, although I hate people who force it.

  12. What’s your favourite position to sleep in?
    Anyway possible really considering within the last three weeks I’ve fallen asleep on a mate in a cafe and in a bar but usually if I’m in a bed – on my side.
    1.. 
  13. What are the top 3 qualities that draw you to someone new?
    Honesty, good listener & open-minded.
  14. If you could eliminate one weakness or limitation in your life, what would it be?
    My anxiety.
  15. If you could restore one broken relationship, which would it be?
    Zilch, they’ve broken for a reason so why would you want that sh!t back?

  16. When was the last time you cried?
    Three nights ago, I’m very much a pro-cryer. Despite my cold exterior, I do enjoy a good cry.

  17. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
    Pink obviously.

  18. What 3 words would you use to describe yourself?
    Honest, independent & argumentative.

  19. If you had one super power what would it be?
    Invisibility 100% to hear everyone’s sh!t talk! OK and maybe save a life or two as well.

  20. What is the best present you’ve ever received?
    My 16th birthday present from my parents gucci 1– little Gucci.